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Virgo Rising, Pisces Sun. Welcome to the new America
Well, I suppose we had to have the dramatic Pluto/Uranus square step in before I did part two of this. Well, that and I had a big baseball weekend for my son, so here we are looking int the future of the USA. One of the things that really jumped out at me from this chart is that early on in Obama’s first term, he made the proclamation that America will lead from behind. There were a lot of ways to interpret this declaration. His critics suggested he was weak and that intention would lead America to be bullied by any number of forces or nation states throughout the world. His supporters applauded the sentiment, having tired of wars in Iraq, and Afghanistan.
The embarrassment of Abu Ghraib and the ongoing defilement of human rights at Guantonomo. Bush’s Texas styled global justice and the “spreading of democracy” had left many Americans weary, shame riddled and powerless in the face of Neocon, full spectrum dominance, who were high off the 911 ritual, flush with cash and armed with Patriot Act, which gave them permission, to preemptively dec;are war without approval, spy on potential victims and torture without reprisal. The mood of the country was dark, depressed and hollowed out. The financial crisis of 2008 wasn’t just a material bankruptcy, Americans had been left with little hope and their emotional and spiritual bank accounts were equally drained.
When Obama came in and intoned that we would lead from behind, it was in many ways a sigh of relief. Leading from the front didn’t look that good anymore. The Virgo Ascendant reflects not only that sentiment, but it’s actuality. The Sag ascendant of the original chart, which has expansion as it’s energetic expression, has given way to a more conservative and service oriented nation. With this ascendant, the USA should not be in the business of spreading anything, let alone democracy. The thrust here is to serve and come to the aid of others. Healing is also an aspect of this ASC.
One could make a case that the latest foray into West Africa to deal and heal with Ebola could very well reflect this ascendant, if the intention is to actually heal, versus using it as a pretext for other covert acts and means. This can be seen with Leo in the 12th House. While Virgo on the ASC appears to the world as helpful and ready to meet the needs of those around them, Leo in 12th can indicate a very different agenda. Leo here is most certainly the power behind the humble front. Think of modern nobility, who have abdicated their formal rule in favor of the nation state, while still exerting control from behind the scenes, posing as mere figureheads. With this chart, it’s also interesting to note that Obama’s supposed Sun sits in the 12th House, which means that not only is he fully seen, but his own identity is a mystery, shrouded in the vast oceanic space of rumor, intrigue, controversy and his nebulous origin. Read the rest of this entry »
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Enter Saturn in Sagittarius
Saturn in Scorpio moves steadily towards its final degrees. These are the critical degrees as planets, especially the transpersonal giants like Saturn, Uranus, Neptune and Pluto begin to shift into the next sign. The last degrees are volatile, explosive, catalytic and unstable. We are talking the 27th, 28th and 29th degrees, the latter also known as “The Anaretic Degree.”
On 3/11/11, The Daichi earthquake devastated the Fukushima nuclear power plant. Uranus was at 29 degrees in Pisces and Neptune at 28 Aquarius. Both aspects represent water (Pisces/Neptune) and uranium (Aquarius/Uranus). The volatility of those degrees was more than evident on that day. We’re talking cosmic wobble, matrix shifting, cultural and planetary tectonics.
Let’s go back to October, 2008, when “The Maverick” LOL, John McCain was theoretically running against Barack Obama. And just before the ballots were punched in November, the economy bottomed out. All of those nasty derivatives were like the China Syndrome, a full out meltdown to the core. Where was Pluto? 28 degrees. Critical. The degree shift can also herald the arrival of the new energy of the next sign. The meltdown was a harbinger of the titanic superstructures that would become Pluto in Capricorn.
On September 11th, 2012, radical Islamists raided the US embassy where four Americans were murdered, including Christopher Stevens. Saturn was at 27 degrees Libra. While the Benghazi affair was muted as much as possible, it did have a significant impact on Hilary Clinton, Scorpio, who left her Secretary of State position In February of 2013. Saturn was about to move into Scorpio.
During the final days of Saturn in Scorpio, Ferguson lays in charred and broken memories and dreams. Just as the energy of Saturn is not quite yet extinguished, neither are the flaming embers of what happened last week in Missouri and across the country. Read the rest of this entry »
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A Mutant Strain Of Awakening
No matter what I do, I keep returning to Chiron. The big sexy is the Pluto/Uranus square, which has been doing the planet like Dirk Diggler did Amber Waves in Boogie Nights. But it’s Chiron in Pisces which has cast it’s beguiling, if not mind numbing spell over the planet.
In my private practice where I consult people and read their charts for them, most of my clients are people with Chiron in Pisces (1961-1969) and they are trying their damnedest to understand what they are going through, while gently penetrating their mystery of their own experience, the limits of faith and the geometry of possibility in a world that seems to offer less and less of this with each passing day. Chiron in Pisces denotes extreme sensitivity and I can assure you that these good people can feel the walls of this dimension closing in on them, while they sense the space outside of these four walls, defined by the monolith of Mecca’s Kabaa, the black-hypercube of our eternal imprisonment and exile in this seemingly godless dimension.
During one of my sessions with a student, I was explaining the evolutionary cycles of the 12 Houses and I was moving from the 11th to the 12th Houses and breaking down the potential of the 11th House as it relates to free energy, the end of work, enlightened, group consciousness and the dawning that we are all one; from every perplexing microbe and vexing sociopath, to the wonders of the natural kingdom, the elements of creation and the courage of the human heart. Once we begin to live with this realization of consciousness, we are on the cusp of the 12th House, signifying the end of our human journey on this world. Read the rest of this entry »
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Peterson’s Pater Sins
The giant, Red Eye, swiveled and locked in on Adrian Peterson this past week. Peterson, was born on 3/21/85. That’s just one degree off the astrological new -year, aka Aries 1. It’s one of the most powerful degrees of the zodiac. Its pure, undifferentiated will. If you have ever seen Peterson run with a football, you’ll see that degree clearly in action. He is the unstoppable force that very few unmovable objects have been able to deter. He bounced back from a devastating knee injury in record time to run the football almost further than anyone else in one season. And up until last year, Peterson had managed to avoid many of the pitfalls that other players had descended into. There has never been any talk of drugs, recreational or performance based around AP. He was never caught with any guns at the airport. He wasn’t doing tequila shots off stripper’s booties on a lake cruise like some of his former teammates. In essence, AP was pretty clean—until last year.
In the middle of the season, Peterson left the team to attend the funeral of his son. On the surface, this sounds tragic, and it was, but not for the obvious reasons. The boy was just two and had never met Peterson. In fact, he had just recently found out that it was his son; thanks to a paternity test he had to take. The circumstances surrounding the boy’s death are cloudy and charges have been filed, but what we do know, is that there was serious neglect. That death, attending the funeral of a child he never knew and had just recently became aware of was just the first step in Peterson’s strange and very public odyssey. Read the rest of this entry »
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Posted by: admin in Aquarius, Astrology, Awakening Dreamers, Capricorn, tags: Africa, Atlanta, CDC, Ebola, Global Plague, Kent Brantly, s, Samaritan's Purse, Uranus In Aries
SPECIAL CONTRIBUTION BY KIMBERLY KIDD
Ebola hemorrhagic fever is a contagious disease originating in Africa. The disease is caused in humans by four of the five shepherd’s crook-shaped viruses in the Ebolavirus genus. The virus causes fever and headache in early stages but can lead to hemorrhaging, liver failure and kidney failure. Ebola is fatal in 50 to 90 percent of the cases of those infected. Due to the high mortality rate, Ebola virus is labeled as a Category A bioweapon. This places Ebola in the category among diseases such as anthrax and the plague. Ebola shares with them, similar mortality rates, ease of transmission or dissemination, and the potential to cause panic and a major public health crisis.
For the past forty years, random, isolated, outbreaks of Ebola would infect between ten and one hundred people. Once a person develops symptoms, the time between onset and incapacitation is brief, which previously contributed to the containment of the disease. Standard infectious disease protocols in hospitals were thought to be enough to prevent health care workers from being infected. This outbreak is different. It’s the largest ever recorded. At the time of this writing, more than 700 people are dead in the three small West African states of Sierra Leone, Liberia, and Guinea. More than 1300 people are infected. The already inadequate healthcare and government systems in these nations are failing to contain the disease.
Dr. Kent Brantly, age 33, is an American missionary who contracted Ebola while fighting the disease in Liberia. After displaying symptoms of the disease, he has returned to the US for treatment. For the first time, on August 2, 2014, at 11:20AM EDT, infecting the body of a native American, Ebola arrived on American soil. If this events and surrounding circumstances can be distilled, they contain the essence of the planetary energies active at that moment.
Here is the chart for this event:
Jupiter is in the 10th house. The 10th house itself belongs to Capricorn, home of large corporations, doctors, and fame. Jupiter rules the religious world, the national religion, priests, banks, foreign countries, travel, and wealth. As these energies manifest, news headlines are giving public recognition to a missionary laboring in foreign fields, employed by a large religious corporation, Samaritan’s Purse. Money is flowing, the World Health Organization (WHO) has announced $100 million in funding for their plan to address the “persistent threat” of the virus. The day after Dr. Brantly arrived in the US, the World Bank committed $200 million in emergency loans for Guinea, Liberia and Sierra Leone.
Uranus, who rules unusual people and new acquaintances is in Aries, and in the 7th house, which is associated with Libra, the sign of relationships. Libra is also the ascendant. As Aries is involved, decisions are being made at the top, and issued as directives, without any discussion. Uranus in the 7th means relationships are forming that are sudden, unstable, and irritating to those involved. We begin to fear strangers. The U.S. Centers for Disease Control (CDC) is sending 50 staff to West Africa, to advise health officials on controlling the disease. In March, the NIH awarded a $28 million grant to create a collaboration between the fifteen institutions who are studying treatment and prevention of Ebola. Tense relationships among local physicians and outsiders are to be expected. Forced collaboration among institutions who are normally competitors for resources is unlikely to be pleasant.
Among the population in the US, outcry was expressed as a fear storm in social-media, as Donald Trump tweeted his displeasure at bringing infected Americans back to the US. Normal relationships become stilted, strained, broken or distant, as people cope with suddenly being thrown together in unlikely alliances and uncomfortable situations with strange new people. Normal relations are suspended. A US travel warning was issued on July 31, advising against “nonessential” travel to Liberia, Guinea, and Sierra Leone. Nigeria is screening all airport passengers. British Airways has cut off the regularly scheduled flights between Britain and Sierra Leone and Liberia. The United Arab Emirates official airline, no longer flies to Guinea, and two African airlines, Arik and Asky are not flying to Liberia or Sierra Leone at this time. Alternative news media are reporting that the US border is too permeable, and “leaked documents” state dozens of people from Ebola-infected nations have been caught illegally crossing into the US.
Even as headlines advise, “Ebola virus…Here’s why you don’t need to panic,” The world is frightened. Margaret Chan, director-general of the WHO stated, “If the situation continues to deteriorate, the consequences can be catastrophic in terms of lost lives but also severe socioeconomic disruption and a high risk of spread to other countries.”
With such strong influence of Aquarius, and it’s ruling planet, Uranus, there are bound to be some new experiments, as Uranus rules the laboratory. The National Institutes of Health (NIH) now has plans to launch the phase one clinical trial of the Ebola vaccine as early as Fall, 2014, and if Big Pharma agrees, production of the vaccine will ramp up, and the vaccine will be available in 2015 to at-risk health workers.
Pluto is in the 4th house in Capricorn, opposing Venus in the 10th house, the house of Capricorn. This is potentially, the most malevolent set of aspects in the chart. it speaks of concealed activities that have bearing upon life and death, and don’t respect the rules or customs of polite society. Ponderous burdens placed upon people by corporations. Dark elements that roam at night, organized criminals (Big Pharma).
The bat, a creature of the night, is a very Plutonian symbol. The bat is thought to be the natural “reservoir” of the Ebola disease. The fruit bat is where the virus is present when unobserved or hidden, when there is no outbreak among humans. Bats are thought to be immune. Bats transmitting a disease to humans? It sounds like a novel in the vampire genre. Indeed, Pluto rules vampires too, and the people dying from Ebola look like they might be starring in a role in such a drama, as blood hemorrhages from every orifice.
The 4th house is associated with Cancer, that rules the homeland. It’s here at home where Pluto’s hidden activity is taking place. While everything appears civil, with Venus up in the 10th, in the public eye, secret organizations form closer relationships with government and Pluto is forcing us to transform our home through death and rebirth.
Monkeys are also carriers of the disease, but, like humans, suffer a high mortality rate. In areas of the world where Ebola outbreaks have happened, people commonly consume primates, even butchering carcasses found dead. Bats are caught fresh and made into a spicy stew. Ebola can also infect dogs and pigs. Pigs may suffer symptoms, but dogs may remain asymptomatic. With Pluto in the 4th house, even our domesticated animals can be participants in fostering the danger.
Pluto also rules secrets and all that is hidden. Until August 4th, 2014, treatment for Ebola only consisted of supportive therapy, such as oral rehydration and intravenous fluids, and other treatments to suppress or ameliorate symptoms. Both of the missionaries who were infected were given a highly experimental drug called Zmapp, referred to by the media a “mystery serum,” or a “secret serum,” that had previously only been tested on monkeys. This was so unusual that even the WHO spokesman, Gregory Hartl, stated that medical professionals, “cannot start using untested drugs in the middle of an outbreak, for various reasons.”
The process of creating this serum involves producing antibodies to Ebola by exposing mice to portions of the virus. The antibodies produced by the mice were harvested and used to treat the missionaries. An alternate procedure includes the antibodies being placed into tobacco plant cells, via bacteria. The plant creates antibodies that are then extracted, purified, and administered to the patient intravenously.
Of course, there is criticism of the method. The primary problem being that the process of changing these genes into human cells is not yet perfect. A chain is made among a deadly virus, mice, bacteria, tobacco, and humans. At several stages, the procedures can go awry, with unpredictable consequences.
Pluto is strong in this chart, with Mars and Saturn, in the 2nd house, in Scorpio, which is ruled by Pluto. The second house, associated with Taurus, has concerns about the physical body, and accumulation of resources. This speaks of Mars’ aggressive battles for funding, aggressive disease, and Saturn’s slow progress. Sierra Leone has deployed troops to impose quarantine. Families there have forcibly removed patients from hospitals. It has taken months for these steps to be taken. Here, martial law will be quickly imposed when an ill person emerges from the general population.
Venus is in Cancer in the 10th house. This speaks of the doctor’s public return to beloved home. Venus also governs women’s issues. Interesting that estrogen receptor drugs appear to be a viable pathway in the treatment of Ebola. Over 90 percent of mice treated with such drugs survived infection and treatment.
Mercury in this chart has only negative aspects. Solutions don’t come through rational means here. Much confusion among public officials, random tweets from celebrities, and public misinformation cloud any logical consideration of issues at hand. Measures are impulsive, spur-of-the moment, and stop-gap.
Amazingly, Neptune appears to have only positive aspects in the chart. Neptune, in Pisces, the sign it rules, in the 5th house, the house of Leo. Neptune has positive aspects to Mars, Saturn, and Pluto. All of these forces could possibly work in concert with one another, as they each make their aspect to Neptune. With Neptune’s placement in Leo, it also provides hope for the children who will face this crisis. Neptune rules large institutions, where the self is dissolved through the process of mortification, where experiences can be summarized in the common threads woven through the collective unconscious, such as, “We are all human.” To prevent this arrival of Ebola from being the harbinger of doom for America, Neptune brings a simple solution: Direct our strength, our systems, our struggle toward being fully human. We need only to recognize the humanity in others, in any form the other appears: In the midst of their suffering, or beneath their disguise. We will all be served if each one serves himself last.
Kimberly Kidd comes from a long line of spiritual servants and ecclesiastical traditions and is adding astrology to her universal ministry, symbolized by her North Node in Aquarius.
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Marching out of the firmament of the past
The term “false flag” has become a buzz phrase in the Vox Populi, from 9/11 to Sandy Hook. Whenever an event comes along to hijack our attention, the false flag is unfurled. Another name for a “false flag” is “ruse de guerre” or a “ruse of war.” It has its origins at sea, when ships would fly a false flag so that an approaching ship wouldn’t think it would be the vessel of an enemy. Only when they would get close, would they realize at some point, invariably too late, that they had been fooled.
Here we see Neptune emerge as the false flag has it’s origins at sea and of course, it conforms to Neptune’s more stereotypical definitions of being illusory, duplicitous and untrustworthy. So when we explore the nature of an event as a false flag, we are literally and figuratively diving into the murky waters of Neptune.
When we attempt to dissect current events like both Malaysia flights, the conflict in Ukraine and even 9/11, we eventually run into the trident, Poseidon’s scepter and all of the Neptunian imagery that goes along with it. Are we being given clues? Is the nature of Neptune being revealed as the false flags themselves? Hidden in plain sight? Perhaps the medium is the message.
One-hundred-years ago today, WWI officially began when Germany declared war on France and Great Britain declared war on Germany.
WWI itself, was started by a false flag, as Archduke Ferdinand was felled by one shot, his beloved Sophie, by another, from the revolver of Gavrilo Princip. Princip was a member of ‘The Black Hand” a small group of Serbian anarchists.
Another member of The Black Hand was Nedeljko Čabrinović, who threw a hand grenade beneath the open air car that Ferdinand and Sophie were traveling in.
Čabrinović was an angry young man who had been abused by his father and then kicked out of his own house. Let’s just say his hatred of his father might have been transferred to the Duke, but we’re getting just a bit ahead of ourselves. Čabrinović was an Aquarius (of course) and he was born on February 2nd, Astrologically and ironically Srđa Popović, one of the leaders of Otpor, also Serbian, also a revolutionary, has his birthday on February 1st. Popović and Otpor have been the radical engines behind most of the color revolutions and various springs over the past three years.
But we’re here to explore not just though the nature of false flags, but how they are not limited to external events, things that exist outside of ourselves. Today, we look at how we perpetrate them upon ourselves.
A false flag on a personal level is when we are not authentic and true to the core principals of who we are. It’s when we raise another flag to others, presenting ourselves in ways that disingenuous and flying a false face. We do it all the time and when we do, we are performing a psychological operation on ourselves. It’s subtle and insidious. But what are we really doing? We are participating in form of self-sabotage. These are the nasty roots of denial and this is why large scale false flags work. This is why through the methodology of traumatic conditioning, usually on a personal level, the large operations work. People default to the party line because they have consigned to raising a false flag as a form of either survival or a psychopathological tactic, because if one assumes a false flag or a false face, they can further a personal agenda. This is all too evident in the corporate world.
It’s interesting to note that flags and flag symbolism play a significant role in the Sabian Symbols;
0 Cancer: On A Ship The Sailors Lower An Old Flag And Raise A New One.
25 Virgo: A Flag At Half-Mast In Front Of A Public Building.
11 Sagittarius: A Flag Turns Into An Eagle; The Eagle Into A Chanticleer Saluting The Dawn.
25 Sagittarius: A Flag Bearer In A Battle.
17 Capricorn: The Union Jack Flag Files From A British Warship.
8 Aquarius: A Flag Is Seen Turning Into An Eagle.
It’s interesting that I would have an interest in this subject since two of my aspects are represented in these symbols, particularly Cancer 0, where my Mars is.
With Chiron in Pisces, we are all dealing with this deep and personal piece inside of ourselves. When we run a flag up the pole that others will interpret as friendly, when our more natural inclinations are shelved and hidden, what happens to us when we do? We are not accessing the shadow and the hidden gift of Chiron itself.
This is a very powerful time as Chiron retrograde (moving backwards) is in trine with Saturn in Scorpio. If we can view this dynamic from a psychological perspective, Chiron retrograde is like a receding tide that reveals what’s hidden under the surface of things. While the presiding and overall feeling might be one of being raw and naked, Saturn in Scorpio provides an opportunity to re-build our foundation at a deeper level, one that is both potentially integrated on a psychological level and, even deeper at a soul level, because Scorpio, although feared does represent regeneration and Saturn a form of accomplishment.
One of my new, favorite shows, is “Naked And Afraid.” I can’t think of a better, more contemporary example of this Chiron/Saturn combination. Let’s take a closer look.
On the show, two strangers meet each other in nature and yes, they are naked. This is an allegorical trip through time as the first man and first woman aka Adam and Eve re-appear in our consciousness. The two, naked survivors tap into not just our primal mind, the frontal lobe, but our mythopoetic connections to Genesis. Pisces is the pure, uncut, connection to source. It was the all that was and is until Man and Woman, exerted their will and incarnated with the perceived loss of their connection with source. This is Aries and we are getting ahead of ourselves.
So the naked strangers must confront their shame and then re-connect with the wild of nature or the physical emanation of source on the planet. They invariably get reduced to merely surviving. In extreme conditions, they must huddle together, their naked bodies providing whatever warmth possible, so they engage in a fairly deep form of intimacy, and yet they don’t engage in sex. The survival and heat is Scorpio, the sexless bit is Saturn. In one episode, the man in the couple was a Mormon and he refused to even get close to this partner. Talk about Saturn in Scorpio.
The show strips away through vulnerability, transforms and rebuilds. That’s the algorithm for the current Chiron/Saturn trine. It’s a metaphor, but if you’re feeling naked and afraid in your own life, the key to getting through it all, is survival baby. Saturn and Scorpio make you tougher, while tenderizing your soul. You can get through this, you can survive.
The bevy of retrograde planets at the back end of the solar system takes us back into time. Uranus, Neptune, Pluto and Chiron are all wheeling in reverse and like a celestial, temporal flux, we whirl back to the morning of August 4th, 1914, where the first shots of the first world were fired.
Obviously the Sun was in Leo, but there was something going on then that presaged not just the passing of an era, but birth of a dark, new age.
As we look back on August 4th, 1914, at 6AM, Liege, Belgium, we can see the passing of the aristocracy, the setting Sun of the dynastic families of the Hapsburgs and the Romanovs is in the 12th House, coming to a cycle of completion. Opposite the Sun is Uranus and Jupiter in Aquarius, conjunct, in the 6th House. Aquarius opposite the Sun is the coming age. It’s the age or modernity, of industrialization and socialization. In the 6th House, it is the house of the proletariat. This is the cosmic equation of revolution, radicalization and overthrow.
In a few, short years, the Hapsburg dynasty would be destroyed, their Austro-Hungarian empire in ruins, their assists stripped and taken for reparations. Shortly thereafter, the Romanovs would be killed by Bolsheviks and the transformation of Europe would be nearly complete. The monarchies of the 18th and 19th centuries were eliminated or hiding-in-plain site behind the curtain of the emerging states.
It’s a chart based on opposition, both Cardinal and Fixed. The Moon in Capricorn opposing Neptune and Mercury in Cancer adds layers of obfuscation and if the setting Sun of the royals is descending, the rising of the Capricorn Moon augurs the ascent of a new ruling class, one not necessarily tied to tradition. It’s an aristocracy based on the ability acquire power through subtle means (The Moon) via corporate agencies. The cool and detached Cap Moon opposes the sentimentality of Mercury and Neptune in Cancer, also descending, looking backwards towards a passing era in the dusty nostalgia of noblesse oblige.
In the 11th House, Saturn and Pluto conjoin as a force to be reckoned with, but with the Mars square of both Pluto and Saturn, it’s violence and the destruction of antiquities, protocols and tradition with he volcanic rise of intellectualism, the collective and the new age.
But what’s really interesting about this chart is Pisces in Chiron, nearly at the degree it’s out now 16/18. The same energy that ripped Europe out of it’s innocence, leaving millions naked and afraid is flowing through the tributaries of time to the present.
Today, at Liege, Europe’s modern royalty were present; Merkel, Cameron, William, Kate as they raised the dead and channeled the chaos of the past, citing the travesties of Ukraine and Palestine and how these false flag conflagrations should serve as a reminder that all is not well and the demons of obliteration and desecration lie just beyond their safe European homes. Theirs was a looking forward into future where Europe would have to stand strong, as one, united front. Sometimes I can’t believe that they can actually believe these lines in their scripted lives, the charade of public service, masquerading as servants of the common good. In due time, like the castaways on the Naked And Afraid, they too will at some point, have to come to grips with the extreme vulnerability of their tenuous and very mortal, positions.
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No field of dreams
The tears streamed down Jim’s face in the white-hot, Central, Texas Sun in small rivers, not rivulets. It was a flash flood, reminiscent of the torrential downpours in these parts. Texas is a Capricorn state with a Capricorn Moon. When it rains (Cancer) it pours, both within and without.
Mixed with sweat, it was a co-mingling of the essential, emotional fluids that run through everything, from Cacti and geckos to frustrated athletes. He’s a stoic-type, a Taurus, and not given to even mild displays of emotion.
Jim is just ten.
This happened on Saturday.
His saline flush was caused by the fact that he had dropped not one, but three balls in the span of one inning during a game. He was benched, but there was something deeper going on, something disturbing his field and he wasn’t the only boy on my son’s team who exploded into some sort emotional blister pop. My own son was decidedly heavy. Gone was the fire from the past games where he battled on every pitch and for a few, brief weeks, became the heart and soul of the team.
Sometimes we take for granted that people, especially children are limited frames of reference for non-local consciousness. Halfway around the world, children their age are losing life and limbs in places like Afghanistan and Palestine thanks to mortars, shells and drones. Jupiter in Leo will bring us the celebration of the child, but also show us where their tears bleed into the Sun.
Chaos theory presupposes that a butterfly fluttering it’s wings in China leads to a thunderstorm in Kenya. If we are truly connected, we can feel the anguish and the pain of people we have never met or ever will. Children might be the most accessible actually when it comes to this. As I watched Jim’s uncontrollable unleashing of his sadness and grief, he seemed to be tapping into something bigger, like the wonderful lies we love to tell ourselves.
We played at a complex called, “The Field Of Dreams” one of many outposts of semi-rural baseball that have been built by entrepreneurs capitalizing on the powers of emotion and memory, with the advent of tournament season where they operate like a small ballpark. We pay to get in. We pay to have our kids play. We pay $3.00 for Gatorade. They’re all over the place out here.
We have the luxury of telling ourselves that this matters or is meaningful in some way. Maybe our kids have fun—maybe they don’t’. When it’s close to 100 degrees, not even oceanic amounts of sports drinks will beat back the brutality of the mid-day-Sun. Back in the old days, The Field Of Dreams was where vagabond cattle came to die. Late July and August isn’t kind in Texas.
But here we are sitting in our plastic chairs, cheering our kids on, putting up with the usual and expected vagaries of teams and events such as these, keeping our mouths shut and doing our best to be awkwardly and conspicuously polite., because I know that in Texas, you can’t trust people. I know it’s a very broad, Texas –sized generalization, but it’s true. Say the wrong thing to the wrong person and there’s a very good chance it will get back and even distorted to the person one is talking about. Its how discussing issues gets turned into gossip, which in turn gets real toxic, real fast. So people keep their mouths shut—not out of respect—but out of fear.
In Gaza, it’s a lot more serious. Say the wrong thing to the wrong person and you could find yourself in an IDF cell under the threat of suspicion and terror. The stakes are higher, a lot, but the results are similar; a prison of the mind forged out of mistrust masquerading as etiquette or political protocol. Whatever the case, as the Field Of Dreams’ astroturf is a simulacra for the Agrarian Age of America, a synthetic splotch of geometry and proportion, it is also a replicant of what once was and never will be again, our innocence lost and repackaged as a network of polymers that are vacuumed, not cut. Our sentimentality is an obscene luxury at times, especially now. How can we celebrate our own progeny while other children not too unlike our own are being bombed back into the Stone Age. Hopefully, this Jupiter run will bring it to light and not in some kind of fucked up way where children are being moved around and pushed to borders to grab headlines and fat ass tax dollars. The real children there are pawns in a cynical game of community organizing at a global level, paid in full by your tax dollars, just like the death from the skies in Palestine, printed by US and then BORROWED from the same people, at interest. Yeah, sit with that one for a while. It’s not the literal price we pay for our freedom, but the high cost of manufacturing the illusion to keep it on life-support.
I’ll be posting more frequently. It’s time.
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